I want to be a mother.

Ever since I had that piece of paper registered at one municipal hall in Cabanatuan City,Im constantly dreaming. I said to myself: "Now that I have this "legal" paper,im sure my kid/s will not be called "illegitimate". I was so happy. Not that there's a requirement before deciding to have a miracle grow inside you,but for me it is! 

I wonder what it feels like to have life growing inside of my belly,and not just feel the "love-handles" in my body.

I wonder what will I crave for at night time when everybody is asleep.

I wonder if my first born will be a girl or a boy,or twins!

What will I name him/her or them?

After some time the excitement wore off,because I found out that I have PCOS~ PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome. I was treated with provera and oc for a few months to induce and manage my period. Im on the second stage of inducing quality eggs with a pill prescribed by my OB but has not really started on the pill yet. Will have to stall for that because I have weight issues as well.

I have not done anything yet to loose any weight,but God knows I will get there. I know right,it's like stalling to get pregnant and be a mom like I dreamed to be,but Im just not loosing the weight yet.

Follow me on my quest to loose the weight and hopefully getting pregnant one day,so help me God!